Ready, Set, New Year!

December 31, 2008 via text to my friend J:

"What are you wearing tonight, I just want to look cute?! I am going to Macy's to see if they have the boots I want on sale. I want to wear a dress but it is soooo cold out-no matter I won't be kissing anyone regardless!"

Now the words above are not entirely correct, but I do remember having a conversation with my girl friend J like that before she came over to my house for a long night of need I say, "What did I do???".

Yep that was me a year ago, not even single for a full year, trying everything I could to cover up the blemish that I thought leaving my sons father had created. Little did I know at the time it was the blemish I was creating by dating a ton and drinking too much those first few months that I would have to face head on in 2009.

Well...January 1, 2009 I had a massive headache and a clear vision that has followed me through to 3 days ago when I read this post on mssinglemama.com . The vision I had is irrelevant, however after viewing her post (do it!) I realized that a lot has been unfulfilled and I am still where I was one year ago.

Now, I have replaced the alcohol with running (and may I say I look hot), my two jobs with one great one, and the random men for more solid relationships...my point is I have changed a lot and mostly for the better. My evolution is ready to hit it's peak where I really am starting to understand myself, and it's awesome. However, there was still that need to have men in my life-how silly but their attention is my vulnerability.

I don't think I am alone when I wish and hope that I could find that one true person that I can share my thoughts and feelings with. Someone to help me with my son when his hyperness has reached it' peak and I am going to lose it. Mainly though, I am looking forward to meeting that someone. So much so that i think almost every guy I date is "that someone". My naivete in regards to what I need and want has since the beginning of 2009 turned into empowerment.

I know longer need the attention and affection from a man. I will be making more attempts to meet other single mothers. I won't make excuse as to why I cannot bring myself around couples and their kids. I will stop cleaning when my son asks me to play with him (my house does not need to be spotless all the time!!!).

I will it.

All the silly mistakes I made last year I have learned from and I cannot wait to make new mistakes in the upcoming year. However I know it will be with great clarity that I attempt to move forward as well.

Here's to 2010!!!

p.s. I am sitting home with My Lovely Boy an d he was asleep by 8:30, win for me!!!

Motorcycle rides, New Restaurants, and Good Friends

I went to lunch with Boy Wonder yesterday. He took me on his motorcycle...it was hot, he was hot, we both looked hot.



I knew he had a motorcycle and asked him if he would take me for a ride one day. Well the weather has been so nice that I couldn't wait for him to offer so I just told him too. To take me to lunch on his motorcycle that is...In true Melissa fashion I was impatient and thought it best for me to make a suggestion instead of waiting for him. We work in the same building so it wasn't like he had to go out of his way to come get me. It was great though...I had total trust in him, I wasn't scared at all. Plus it was a nice excuse to have my arms wrapped around his tight abs : )



Tonight I had dinner with two very close girlfriends of mine. We went to a new restaurant that opened up this past month, a French Bistro. It was a great time. The food was great. The company was great. I had a lovely evening. When we were leaving the owner/chef thought he recognized me. I can only hope he saw me at another restaurant and admired the fact that I enjoyed new food, good food, because I have no idea who he was.



I plan on going back to the restaurant, taking different friends. I love seeing people who's opinions I value critique a place that I think is special.

This restaurant was special, it has a very good vibe. Maybe I will take Boy Wonder next...he asked if I wanted to go for a longer ride.